Right now, I am procasinating about studying, cause I really don't feel like doing so.
But wait a minute. Do I have a choice? No.
I really wish that I was studying about something easy ad something which is fun or just working.
NO 'A' LEVELS!!! ARRGH!!!
But one thing that I know or sure that, the more I complain the less work I'm going to get done. So I've come up with a plan to 'immerse' myself int studying. One is to type out this bloody blog and try to motivate myself to do it. The other is to come up with the list of revision that I am supposed to finish. My mission for these two weeks is to clear the list. I pasted the lists on my wall so it kinda reminded me that I needed to do my revision. Cool,eh?
But the thing is, I can't bring myself to do it. And it is also NOT FUN!!!
I don't even remember having this much difficulty studying when I was in YTSS. Hais... I seriously miss those days. Even Min Min studying harder than me.
My other friends are already preparing for the A levels already, but I'm still feeling inertia. And up to the point that I didn't want to go to school. What the hell. I'm like trying to be the nice kid ever since the primary school incident and I could managed this until this year when I let my nner self peeked out to the world. Right now, it is about to present itself to the people that I know and I'm afraid that the family and friends around me will get it. THIS IS NO END!
But I think I have to thank my parents. SERIOUSLY. More so durng this period because of the economic crisis. Not that my dad lost a job, but he is getting more and more busy that I could only see him once per week. And sometimes he ooked really tired. I can't help him with anything, but I tried to lighten his burden at home by trying to wash his car. My mom is also out there working. Although not as tiring as dad's job, but she would always come home on time and ensure that we took our meals regularly. She also made the house clean and conducive for studying(although sometimes she would also make me do it, which I really do not like). Nowadays, she is even trying to help me with my problems. Although it is no help at all, I really appreciate it. Not to mention that she also tries to encourage me to study, which is something that she rarely do.
I didn't notice it until recently that my parents really NEVER punish me in ANY WAY because of m results. Understandable, but I'm glad that they did that. Well its about time that I started studying. Maybe tomorrow or tonight then, when I'm convinced that my restaurant city game is a goner. Well JA NA!!!
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